In which Rach browses entries from her old blog.

You find interesting things when you read over the stuff you wrote over 3 months ago and forgot about. :P

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There's this random marker person at my Kumon who has problems. So, I don't get a question, and I ask for help. She reads me the answer so freaking fast that I couldn't hear anything clearly. I asked her to repeat what she said, and she's like, "JUST READ IT OVER AGAIN" and I'm like, "WTF, I READ IT OVER LIKE 5 EFFING TIMES AND I STILL DON'T GET IT, THATS SORT OF WHY IM ASKING YOU FOR HELP" but she went off to help this other person, so I think she missed my pissed-off glare.

So, I read the text again... and again... and then she's like, "STOP STARING AT IT, STARING AT IT WON'T HELP" and I felt like slapping her. And then she took it and looked at the answer book and was like, "COME ON, THIS STUFF IS EASY" and I was like, "I'M IN GRADE EFFING SEVEN AND THIS IS LIKE GRADE EFFING ELEVEN WORK, AND YOU EXPECT ME TO FIND IT EASY??? YOU HAVE SERIOUS ISSUES, LADY." Then she gave this explanation thing that made no sense. Something like "The lament part refers to him weeping and moaning next to the riverbank" and then something about waiting for him to finish speaking cuz the dude wasn't going to speak for long. I had no idea how those two ideas were connected, so I asked her why they gave that answer, and she's like, "Cuz thats what it says in the answer book." And I muttered under my breath, "That's helpful," and she said, "What?" and I repeated myself, and then she's like "WHAT???" and I'm like, "FORGET IT." And she's like, "WHAAATTT?????" and I felt like kicking her. Which probably would have been easy cuz her legs were invading my space, and they kept bumping against my legs.

...And I forgot what I was going to complain about next, so whatever.

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Uwahh, Rach had a bad day that day. D: Rach still remembers that person. Rach is still kind of pissed off at her. (And yes, Rach does sometimes hold really long grudges.)

Oh, that reminds Rach. Apparently Lileth works at Kumon now. :O Rach wishes her good luck with that. ._.

And now the rant that is more likely to interest people...

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What. The. Hell. Just stop it. I'm getting so sick of it.

What am I talking about? The fact that most people seem to care about our relationship status than much else. Actually, "care" isn't the right word. I can't find a word for "abuses our status to make both stupid and hurtful comments at both Richard and I."

I think some people in grad band heard Kevin (who goes on my bus) ask me- in front of everyone in grad band (but not everyone was listening, thank god): "Rachel, do you like Richard?" He'd been doing that for the past week or three, just to irritate me. And he knows I get irritated. So ignore him, some would say. Here's the problem: I ignore it, he, and most other people, continue. I don't ignore it, they still continue. Do I have a choice much? T.T

Most of the people who tease me know that I hate it (and I guess that's the precise reason they tease me in the first place) but when I tell them to stop, they still do it. Then I tell them that I'm serious and they should stop, and they stop- for the time being. A day or two later, it starts up again. When I say you should stop, that does not mean stop for just a minute or two. It means stop, REALLY stop.

I know that most people don't really mean to make me depressed-like and stuff, but there is a difference between playful teasing, and killing my self-esteem for four months with no end in sight. How does it kill my self-esteem, you ask? Well, it's less to do with the teasing and more to do with the fact that I feel disrespected, and my wished unheard. Like my opinions and feelings don't matter to anyone. And people don't like to be ignored; it usually causes them to withdraw from friends and family and socialize less. Which can likely lead to depression. Some people might think that I'm one of the least likely people to get depressed, but I've been in bad moods before. Really bad moods.

To those of you who are the teasers- you know who you are- before you tease me again, at least try to think about what I have to go through every time you do it. I've been putting up with this shit for a long time. I've told people to stop, but THEY DON'T STOP. Again, when I say stop, I REALLY. MEAN. STOP.

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That's the one thing I'm actually happy about. When Richard's not at Crosby, that kind of stuff stops, thank god. (But I still miss him like hell. T.T)

Oh yeah, and this is what Jason commented on one of my posts:

Arclithe said...
Oh no Rachel.
Next year if we do the yearbook, I think we should make like a little box for people to write whatever they want to write in it :D
... well, plus that i guess.
it should be cool!
and we HAVE to make it better than this year's.

BUAHAHA, indeed. >:)

Uwahhh, Rach guesses that almost 90% of this post is copied and pasted from her old blog. That just goes to show how bad Rach is at estimating. xP